You can't get close to others in case they bump into you and knock the protective cover off it.
You're afraid to talk about your scab in case peope reject you, so you wear a mask, live on two levels and become insecure and controlling. Worst of all, you are so busy working for God and taking care of others that you don't think you have time to stop and take care of yourself. The Bible says: "Physician, heal yourself"!
I am a withness to the fact that, those serving in ministry are among the chief offenders. We pay little attenting to the fact that we are bleeding and hemoraging from past wounds of rejection, bitterness, anger, grief, divorce and neglect just to name a few. But God has a way of allowing the bottom to fall out from under you. When chaos is all around you, it is Him letting you know; you have to pause for station identification! It matters not that you are anointed and you can stand a crowd up, people are being slain in the spirit when you lay hands, you prophesy and all your prophecies are on point.
The fact of the matter is, that you have just spew blood and poison on all those who you have ministered to. The spirit within the man or woman of God is transferable. That is why we must be cognizant about what is in our spirit when we stand and minister behind the sacred bookboard.
Does this mean people with "issues" can't work for God? No, quite the opposite. It is the broken, who become masters at mending. But first you must take time to be healed. Jesus said that when the blind lead the blind they both fall into a ditch (See matt. 15:14). it is hard to talk about victory to others when you yourself are living in defeat.
it is hard to bring emotional healing to others when you are still battling the unresolved issues of your past. When you are still bleeding, you can't treat people's problems with the same kind of aggressive faith you'd have if you'd already worked through the problem.
Is it wrong to have a wounded heart? No, but it is wrong not to deal with it. so, spend time with God and let Him make you whole so that He can use you to minister more effecticvely to others. I don't generally tell people to do something that I myself have not already done. To do that would make me a hypocrite! When my husband died, I took time to deal with the hurt, pain, anger and bitterness that was in my aching heart. And I must admit that I didn't initially do it willingly. God forced my hand to do it, because He knew the level and the degree to which He wants to use me in ministry.
When you love God, You will do the necessary things in your life to line up with His will. It doesn't diministh you as a person of faith to admit you are wounded and need to be healed from past offenses or hurts. Today people, saved and unsaved are looking for authenticity and transparency in ministry. How can someone tell you that you can be healed from drug addiction, bereavement, a poverty mentality, cigarettes, gossip, lying etc, if they have never struggled in areas of weakness. I would rather see a sermon than hear one. and I know that I am not alone in that regard.
I pray that I have said something today that will help you to access whether or not you need to deal with your unhealed wounds! Be Bless on this Beautiful March Day!
And Remember: "Don't Forget To Say Your Prayers"