I am going to keep this short today because I need to get some things accomplished. So far I am up to 4 toxic self head talk that I owe my TRASH JAR! The good thing is that I am catching them and witin a second or two, I Tell myself, SHUT UP! LOL. I am talking out loud to myself in my house. Lol
Any way: I dont know if I am ready for this talk on BITTERNESS!!!! I LIVED @ THAT ADDRESS FOR A LONG TIME. But I finally had to wrestle with that demon and go and get some medice for my soul. Not medication, but godly counseling.
I had to name Bitterness, Put face On It. I Had to Write Down The Offense, Write Down The Phrases, Words, Remember The Body Language And The Source of the Offense.
Whew! It was painful. I talk about some of it in my book, "Don't Forget To Say Your Prayers" and also in the follow-up book, "Carest Thou Not That I Parish, In The Midst of the Storm."
Apostle said something last night that struck another chord, I say another, because, she has been playing a symphony to me for the last 10 days.
She said that, you do not confess everyone to everyone. Some people cannot handle your drama, your mess up, your trauma, your struggle. Some stuff needs to stay between you and Jesus.
We need to ask for God's forgiveness to blot out the transgression, and ask others for forgiveness for healing and restoration. We have to be honest with ourselves. If we reveal an offense, a secret, hurt, addiction or a traumatic event; would disclosing those involve benefit from you opening Pandora's Box? Who benefits, who gets the glory. Sometimes it is just wise to keep your mouth closed.
How do I know? I am living it. I cannot or will not share somethings that occurred in my life, but I journaled the struggle, pray about it, forgave the offense, get counseling etc etc. And yet, this class is bringing somevof the memories and decisions back up!
But that is ok! Every now and then an enema is good for body and soul. The "Cloud, " stores lots of information, and just by hitting the right app, you can have hidden, stored away pictures, ideas, thoughts, etc restored in a flash.
It is what you do with things on repeat or redial or reboot that matters next. IJS.
I said I would be beief, so I'm out till tonight.