Seeing all those sins listed on that crushed up piece of paper brought about conviction, but it did nothing to cure his selfishness. He says he moped around with his head hung low, thinking to himself that he was the scum of the earth, that he was a little worm waddling on the earth. He confessed “Woe is me, I’m undone” like the Prophet Isaiah did in Isaiah chapter 6. He began singing, “Such a worm as “I.’” I believe those are a part of the lyrics of the hymn, “At The Cross.”
Andrew talks about being completely worthless and filled with such low self-esteem. His feeling of inferiority made him feel so bad that he couldn’t even look a person in the face and talk to them. He says, “I had the lowest self-esteem of anyone he knew, yet I was operating in just as much pride as everyone else.” Since he did not exalt himself, He thought he was safe. Andrew states in his book that, he did not realize that self-debasement was pride too! Either way, he says, “It’s just self-centeredness.”
Most people who think of themselves as quiet, shy or on the timid side are really just being prideful! Low self-esteem causes self to dominate their thoughts. Even the prospect of testifying in front of others about what God has done I their lives causes fear to race through their minds: Most people with this mindset begin to say things like this in their mind: “What will the people think of me? Will I make a fool of myself? What if I stumble over my words.?
Low self-esteem is just another form of pride. It is the result of focusing on yourself as compared to others and then coming to the conclusion that you just do not measure up, and everybody else is better than you, everybody else around thinks you are a nobody, and you believe it yourself. But ultimately, it is still just about you!
I always tell my mentees that the first thing they must get delivered from is “People’s Opinion.” You cannot be concerned about what people think about you! It is more important to focus on what God thinks about you! The Lord tells us not to think more highly of ourselves than we ought to. But on the other hand, He does not want us walking around thinking that we are the scum of the earth.
There is only one perfect person that walked the face of the earth, Jesus Christ! However, the truly humble Believers do not consider themselves any higher or lower than what the WORD says about them. God-centered people will often put themselves in harm’s way in the direction of the Lord. The Prophets of old and the early Apostles put themselves in danger at the direction of the Lord. If there was something He needed them to do, He would call upon to carry out a particular assignment. In contrast to that, God also expects us to take care of self and to bless self whenever He leads. Either way, should it hinder us from obeying the Father we love.
Many people still feel that to debase self is a form of humility and to exalt self is a form of pride. James 4:10 contradicts this religious notion by revealing who God wants to exalt: “Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.” What happens when people humble themselves, and God starts to exalt them? The truly humble person will allow God to do it. But the proud person won’t. They are too concerned about what others might think.
Self-centered people have difficulty handling compliments and positive feedback. Just listen to folk who have just prayed, preached, sang an inspiring song under the anointing of God in a worship service. Listen to how they respond to a compliment: “It wasn’t me, it was the Lord. Don’t give me the credit, all the praise goes to the glory of God.” I’m just trying to do the will of the Lord, all of my help comes from Him, and I’m nothing without Him.” Without realizing it, they drew all the attention back to self! A humble person would answer encouraging words, saying. “Thank you, Praise God for Jesus.”
False humility also fishes for compliments: “Sister Sally, I really don’t have a good singing voice, but the Lord tells each of us to “Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, and that’s what I try to do.” Please pray my strength in the Lord; I just want God to use me.” These false humble folk knock themselves out hoping someone will pay them some attention, throw accolades their way, so they can hook you into lifting them up. That is pride in action, my friend.
Religious ways of dealing with selfishness only make you religiously humble. Afterwards, you are still so full of yourself that when the Lord says, “Go lay hands on Mrs. Jones, you say dumb stuff like: “Who me, who am I that I should be used of God to lay hands on the sick?” You immediately focus the attention back to yourself. Who me,” God’s not able to trust me with this kind of power. That is what we call prideful stinking thinking.
We have to constantly be on the lookout for this type of pride. God hates pride and he hates falsehoods and hypocrites. Knowing the Word of God, knowing the right posture toward anything He asks you to do, having a normal estimation of yourself, can and will position you to say and do the right things when asked. Philippians 4:13 states, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
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